If there’s one thing I am thankful for in 2020, it’s a real honest look at what I used to prioritize and value in my life and what no longer speaks to my heart anymore.
Things that I used to care or thought I loved no longer holds any importance in my heart. I got lost in a rabbit hole of thoughts that made me question why I loved these things and why I valued these activities for so long. Why did I accept the roles I did in life, and why did I always sell myself short when deep inside of me I feel like a completely different person who wanted to bust out.
And the truth was that I was unwilling to do the extra deep shadow work buried inside. Life was kept busy ignoring these feelings inside that have spilled out in full force. With all this extra time and nowhere to go, there was no easy distraction that made me lose sight of the work that needed to be done.
Real honest questions are being answered for the first time in so long and I can finally hear my inner voice give me answers and tell me things that I have long ignored or pretend I didn’t hear. Eventually all that shit came up like a clogged toilet.
Moments of guilt and shame are starting to pass and everyday I’m starting to see more clearly. Ready to step into more of the unknown to prioritize the love in my heart for the most important people in my life and for the most important exercises of self expression that will fill my soul.
Are you working on your shadow? How are you addressing it and making it peace with it? I would love to hear from you what messages your inner spirit is telling you.
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